Are you happy with where you are in life right now? Take 2

I missed my re-evaluation deadline. I don't tend to miss deadlines but those three months turned into almost 4, but here we are. (If you don't know what I'm talking about go here: http://dft.ba/-5things).

In short: 5 things I wish I could change about my life at this very moment.

1. Not speaking to my family as much as I used to.

This is a big thing for me. Last term we used to speak almost daily and now we hardly speak at all. It's partly down to me being busy at times when they're free and them being busy at times when I'm free. It's not all that difficult to make the extra effort, but these things happen and things slip through the cracks.

2. My pool ability.

And I was doing so well. I'm not really a quitter, but I imagine Sarah hates me for the amount of times I've been threatening to quit the pool team over the last 7 days. They say practice makes perfect but the more I've been practising recently the more I've been losing by huge margins (and by that I mean three 7-balls in the last week - Chris, Joanna and Dani) and then my confidence takes a knock and I don't want to play anymore. I don't want to give up because I have dreams of playing for Roses in my third year; but when you're playing as bad as I have been it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. The worst part is knowing what you're doing wrong and knowing how to fix it and trying the best you possibly can to fix it and failing; because that's the point that you feel completely useless.

Although we did discover the secret to my success on Wednesday after our match. It turns out that all I need is a bottle of Lucozade two hours before playing and half a cider just before I play and I can beat Joanna 3-1.

3. Susceptibility to illness.

So recently I've had a cold, a stomach bug and now some nasty cold/flu-like symptoms including headache, sore throat, nausea and fever. I know it could be due to the stress I keep putting myself under by spending too much of my time playing pool, but it's starting to get annoying. I'm hoping on a period of good health to set me up for my week 10 deadline; fingers crossed.

4. Inability to respond to stress until very serious.

I'm not a night-before kind of person. I very rarely write an essay the day before it's due in and my last three assignments before week 8 were all handed in just under 24 hours before deadline. However, Psych 102 for Monday and Psych 101 for Friday were finished at 5am on Monday and Friday respectively. It's still not last-minute per say, they were both ready a good few hours before the deadline and there was even time for sleep while I asked my mum to proofread them before handing in, but it's still not like anything I've ever done before. I used to know a deadline was looming and start writing a week beforehand and keep going at a steady pace until it was done. Both assignments were started early enough but then ignored for too long a period of time until the night before work was necessary and I had to scramble to make up to my word limits while just wanting to go to bed. This kind of thing can't carry on happening and I imagine it can't could have contributed to the scratchiness in my throat and the mild pounding in my head.

5. Relationship status.

And here's the one that makes me look shallow. Of course I'm looking for love, I'm an 18 year old Fresher for God's sake; now is the time if there ever was one. I've pulled twice in clubs this term, but both straight girls, so not really an option for a relationship there. I've never been one for peer pressure, but it seems like everyone else at uni is getting some and I'm not. Maybe I'm a little bit jealous - so shoot me, at least I'll admit to it.

My afternoon in tweets. (sort of)

I can't actually access twitter on my phone so I started texting tweets with a hashtag #libraryobservations (which I later found out didn't even make it to my twitter profile). I didn't want to link my computer up to the internet, because I'd just sit on Facebook and it would completely defeat the object of why I left my bedroom. However, these observations we're an excellent form of procrastination, which totally distracted from what I was trying to achieve by going to the library. At 20p a pop I decided to stop tweeting and instead started typing into a word document; satisfying two things – saving me money and making it look I was doing a lot of work (which seemed to be really annoying the girl sat opposite me).

For those who don't know, a tweet is a message of only 140 characters. Hashtags (# followed by a word) are used on twitter I presume to aid searching for trending topics (words or phrases that lots of people are tweeting about). Most of these weren't actually tweeted, but they are all under 140 characters (not including the timestamp, I added that for your benefit). You can follow me on twitter at http://twitter.com/minimarshmallow

03:37pm: Going for the @hexachordal and philosophy combination again, but in the library this time. Let's get this essay done :)

03:51pm: A guy in front of me is watching a YouTube video of a person dancing and he looks disturbingly like Tash's brother #libraryobservations

03:55pm: The Chinese girl in front of the YouTube guy has the tiniest Netbook I've ever seen #libraryobservations #notprocrastinating

04:01pm: These seats aren't very comfortable #libraryobservations

04:03pm: The girl opposite me doesn't seem to like it if I knock the table while shifting my chair #libraryobservations

04:10pm: On second thoughts, that might not be a Netbook, looks a bit like one of those mini DVD-players #libraryobservations

04:16pm: There seem to be an inadequate number of plug sockets around this place #libraryobservations

04:19pm: Orange, yellow, green and malachite… shame my essay isn't on art (#currentlylistening Indigo – Tom Milsom) #notprocrastinating

04:21pm: There are an abundance of litter bins though; and yet there seems to be a lot of litter on windowsills #libraryobservations

04:23pm: I only have three hundred words left to do #progress

04:26pm: The girl opposite me seems to be procrastinating almost as much as I am #libraryobservations

04:28pm: Favourite @hexachordal song just came on (#currentlylistening Jake's Song – Tom Milsom)

04:35pm: Just realised that if I close all of the background applications on my laptop then the battery will last longer #idiot

04:35pm: I also need the loo but last time I went in the library the toilets were awful #libraryobservations

04:37pm: Haha the girl opposite me is trying too hard to make it look like she is doing lots of work because I just started typing furiously #libraryobservations

04:38pm: Due in tomorrow and I dislike this essay. I may go home and completely reorganise what I've already written #makingthingsdifficult

04:43pm: I don't speak Chinese, but her tone makes me think that Lady Gaga is just odd in all languages #libraryobservations

05:01pm: Time to completely re-format this essay :) yay for my own idiocy and perfectionism

05:02pm: I'm sure I went to high school with him! #kitchenobservations

06:06pm: Let's not talk about hardcore porn over the kitchen table please guys #kitchenobservations

07:07pm: I skyped my dad and my best friend is there #lifeisgood

07:19pm: My dad is dissing naps and Tash is taking my side. This woman is my soulmate #marriedlife

07:39pm: "I'll hire a hot actor to be your nurse" And I get to pay for it do I Tash? #marriedlife

07:41pm: "Do me a favour, when I get old and decrepit will you put me down?" Gladly Tash, and I might not even wait till you get old. #marriedlife

08:03pm: I didn't even say anything philosophical, it was just basic logic. "Erm… we're from Skem, we don't know what logic is!" #marriedlife

08:04pm: "Isn't that what you put in your washing machine bio-logic-al" #family

08:18pm: Tash is the loudest person I know, and yet I can't hear her on Skype! "Well if you open your window…"

08:41pm: The only reason I am writing at this point is because I'm not allowed that bar of chocolate until I finish #notprocrastinating

09:43pm: I've been writing this essay with double spacing for so long I forgot what 1.15 spacing looks like!

10:30pm: When you walk into the kitchen and it smells like brownies, you know you lucked out in the flatmate department :)

10:53pm: I've hit stalemate with my essay, so I have printed a copy and I'm taking the scissors to it to try and rearrange it :)

11:09pm: I threw out a paragraph. This is going well.

I know that this post is not what you're used to. But in case you didn't notice from that ^ I'm working on an essay. Also, after deciding I didn't like the format and having an overhaul I then spent two hours and three sheets of paper trying to change it to something I liked better, before deciding to revert back to the original format.

I tweet more than I post to Facebook because my Facebook friends get a little bit annoyed if I post more than 30 updates in one afternoon. In my opinion, Twitter is made for spamming and it also helps my inner thoughts get out to a bigger audience, but at the consequence of tweets being less personal (I could write a whole post about contrasting my attitudes to Facebook and Twitter at this point, but I have an essay to write so I'll make a note about this for later).

Deadline is in 14 and a half hours. I'm still going but I should have it finished in the next hour (if I stop procrastinating on my blog that is).

HAHA I just got this twitter @reply:

@minimarshmallow Hello, need any help with your essay? You are just one click away from help! http://ow.ly/38w5g" Seriously?